Not Justified, Just Ancient

[vianegativa]

It's 4:30 PM, and it's dark outside.

I feel very out of touch with the human condition, and very old and withered when dealing with people. My interactions seem scripted; the response taken from multiple choice. I know the answers; I know the questions. What's being said is just a variation of the same thing, and I've got all bases covered.

Please, someone surprise me. I need it badly. Scare me, wow me, make think, but PLEASE do it soon. Give me a little chaos, a little randomness, something out of the blue.

I need a person to do something unexpected. This is all getting a bit painful to watch.

Comments

What time *is* love?

[sonoranbear.livejournal.com]

For my money, nothing spells blissful joy in chaos than This Place.

Enjoy!

Oh, and for a surprise.. I wasn't totally honest in your poll.. I'd like to 'doink' you too.

Re: What time *is* love?

[vianegativa.livejournal.com]

Fine, I'm sending you a 10-doink pass, just like light rail, only more fun. :-)

Re: What time *is* love?

[vianegativa.livejournal.com]

Fine, I'm sending you a 10-doink pass, just like light rail, only more fun. :-)

And thank you, I'll bump around the site. :-)

[cabearcub.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, I guess I just don't understand how someone who has multiple partners, and seems to be in love with several guys, etc. can feel disconnected with other people. What kind of validation are you looking for that you cannot get from all of your life-partners and sex partners?

I'm not trying to be rude; it's a very serious question.

[traderbear.livejournal.com]

I guess you are the only person who is allowed to have problems with his interpersonal relationships. How would you like if people were as critical of you and your posts in your journal as you are of Matt?

[cabearcub.livejournal.com]

Are you JOKING? That's quite the hypocritical thing for you to say, especially since you did that EXACT SAME THING on my journal a couple of days ago.

I asked him a question, and I even explained that I didn't mean it in a mean way. I think my question was very valid. If he doesn't think it was, he can just ignore the question or tell me himself. Did he ask you to police other peoples' correspondence with him? I somehow doubt that.

You have absolutely NO RIGHT to judge my comment to him. Doing so just makes you a hypocrite. Just a couple of days ago, you read a journal entry of mine about being upset about someone stealing something of mine, and you told me that I was making a big deal out of it and I should just "get over it".....THAT'S CRITICAL. My question to Matt didn't imply any kind of judgement whatsoever. I didn't tell him the he should or shouldn't do any certain thing. I didn't assume he was doing anything and didn't presume I knew anything. That's why I asked him the question.

Go out looking for little old ladies that need help crossing the street if you want to be of some use to someone. You aren't helping anyone here Thank you.

[traderbear.livejournal.com]

Since you seem to be so generous with offering advice to everyone, let me offer some to you. Instead of sitting in your home every day and every night discovering how many variations you can find on "Pity party, table for one", why don't you try getting out in the world and meeting some real people. It is terribly sad that I find myself, and quite a few other folks who read your journal by the way, only checking in to see the latest Charles drama or tale of woe. Here's a challenge to you. Why don't you turn off that computer for a complete week. Go out and meet some real people. I bet you'll find it much more rewarding than being a bitter queen on Live Journal. And who knows, maybe you'll even meet a few more people to send you some Christmas cards.

[cabearcub.livejournal.com]

you REALLY have absolutely no idea who I am. Who in the hell do you think you are? You just projected quite a bit of nasty judgements onto me. You betrayed my trust. You tried to use what I wrote in my journal against me to insult me. To me, that's the HIGHEST form of violation. I suspect you do this with everyone else in your life; but since I don't have proof, I'll just have to assume you saved this venom especially for me.

you accused quite a few other people of doing the same horrible thing that you just did. That's quite the vicious attack on me. I hope you get back exactly everything you just dished out to me. Look back at everthing that was said. I never once tried to judge you by anything else you have said. I commented on EXACTLY what you said in these instances.

You don't know me. Your motives for reading my journal were sickening, and I can only hope that everyone else you know realized the type of person you are.

SuperJaded

[vianegativa.livejournal.com]

No, Charles, that's fine. I'm not taking this as rude.

The whole point I'm trying to make has NOTHING to do with validation. I'm not looking for that. Haven't you ever been in a bar and been able to practically lip-synch the conversations as they happen?

Now, amplify that to everything people do, say, or how they react.

Then, apply it to everyone you know, and that's how I occasionally feel.

It's not about needing validation; it's about being so jaded with every moment that you just disassociate from feeling. I know that may sound terrible, or simply psychotic, but it happens to me often.

It's why I really like certain people; they stave off boredom, they keep me off kilter. I desperately need that at times.

Re: SuperJaded

[cabearcub.livejournal.com]

well, i know exactly what you mean by that, and yes, i've felt that way at times to. I think you got your point across to me much better with this explanation than with your original post; but that might just be with me.

Sadly, it's very easy for people to fall into scripts. I can understand your need to feel like other relationships in your life were a little more unique. It's so much easier to appreciate those kinds of interactions.

Grrrrr

[bearwilly.livejournal.com]

Hey...........stop over the condo hereand I'll kick your ass for ya :) LOL.............hugs and tugs

Re: Well, I'll do my best....

[vianegativa.livejournal.com]

1)NOT FUNNY. Don't ever jest like that with me; I like you too much.

2)Wouldn't Surprise Me. Sorry.

*hits you upside your melon*

[cubziz.livejournal.com]

Surprise you or scare you...

I'm going to have YOUR BABY!

Hmmm... Okay, that wasn't enough. Let's try:

Honestly, I really DO like Mama Cass!

Hmmm... So that didn't work.

Maybe I'll try the ultimate shocker:

I'll shut up now.

SAMMICH!

[vianegativa.livejournal.com]

We were just talking about Mama Cass... You have great timing. :-)

My theory was if you just took the ham sammich AWAY from Mama Cass and gave it to Karen Carpenter, there'd be no need for Jewel in Rock n' Roll.

Re: SAMMICH!

[cubziz.livejournal.com]

(Was that suprising enough?)

No Jewel? Oh come on! I'd rather have a dozen Jewels than keep one Karen Carpenter around making songs on the charts. Ugh.
(And if birds suddenly appear, they'll rip out my hair and I'll tear...)

No no no. Actually, if Mama Cass hadn't died, I suspect I would never have started listening to her music (soundtrack to Beautiful Thing).

Re: SAMMICH!

[invisiblebear.livejournal.com]

I'm just scrolling through this for clarification on some things, and came across that comment about Jewel, and now I'm seriously busting a gut laughing. Too, too funny.

Oh, and I'd doink you too, obviously, but that's not the point of my being here. I like reading your words.

[thegreenbear.livejournal.com]

Chipmunks roasting, on an open fire.
Hot sauce, dripping from their toes...
Yuletide squirrels, fresh filleted by the choir...
They've poked hot skewers up their nose.
Everybody knows...
Some pepper and a garlic clove...
Will help to make them seasoned right.
Tiny rats, with a crisp golden coat,
Will really hit the spot, tonight.

[robearal.livejournal.com]

I love you. You are so twisted.

Sounds like "A White Trash Christmas Cookbook".

Re:

[thegreenbear.livejournal.com]

Why THAAAAAANK you...

Au Bon PAIN!

[vianegativa.livejournal.com]

MMMmn, roadkill nicoise!

Okay. THAT did surprise me. Thank you. :-)

Re: Au Bon PAIN!

[thegreenbear.livejournal.com]

NOT...a problem....at all. Thou art MOST welcome.

Extra! Extra! Read all about it!

[grunter.livejournal.com]

I wanted you to be the first to know.

As of today, I'm swearing off penis - for, like, ever.

From here on out, it's nothing but sweet, pink panty-pie for me.

Yessireee.

Re: Extra! Extra! Read all about it!

[muckefuck.livejournal.com]

When I suggested you swear off dicks, this wasn't quite what I meant.

Something to surprise you...

[glbear99.livejournal.com]

I love you. :)

I know you may find that hard to believe but its true.

Re: Something to surprise you...

[vianegativa.livejournal.com]

Frankly Chad, congratulations, you did surprise me.

I really don't know how to react to that, however. I still have a lot of anger regarding you.

[jwall.livejournal.com]

would you think me forward if I snorted a line of ice off your cock?

*sniffles*

[vianegativa.livejournal.com]

How very "Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas"!

Of course, just be sure to lick off any residue. My penis must pass muster at customs, you know.

Re: *sniffles*

[jwall.livejournal.com]

Once wet, it'll pass right through your soft tissues.

Your cock will make it across the border. Just mind your pinprick pupils.

Re: *sniffles*

[vianegativa.livejournal.com]

You make having a Meth habit seem so, well, pedestrian, in the same inventory as saying, "Oh, I've got a DVD player, a Nintendo, an XBox, and a MONSTER Ice habit."

Ankle Transponders for EVERYONE! Whee!

Re: *sniffles*

[jwall.livejournal.com]

Drugs are totally pedestrian.

Except blow. Blow is laughable; a soccer mom's habit.